16/12/21 &&&In the end what counts is what we believe in. If we believe in nothing, we become nothing

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The true test of faith is the ability to see what we believe.

So all this is just somebody's consciousness.

Can I speak to that person?  Of course, I can.  I am part of that consciousness.

My only request is for this person, this God to be fair.

If He has a sick sense of humor, I am in big trouble.

I had played all my cards just [t]o (so) that everybody believes. 

Either I am the Creator's Most Loyal Soldier, the World's Greatest Salesman, or nothing more than a Plain Old Sucker.

No matter how much confidence a General has, all that is nothing more than a flip between victory and defeat.

That is the challenge of a long-distance run.  I have to go through the emotional peaks and valleys.

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Let's look at the situation objectively.  Everybody made it to Sidratul Muntaha on the Prophet's birthday, 19/10/21.

Why do I need the 21 km run then?

It's a knot.

Very well...  It's a knot.

As we speak, all this is added to my consciousness.  These are my deposits.

Here is my deal, 27/12/24 is where I draw the line.  After that, no more.

For what's its worth, that is the date I exit.  Thats the reason I invest in the iPad and shogi.

If nothing happens, I am going off the grid after that.

Consider the 25 years I spend on this course as my lifetime investment.  By then I like to collect my interest.  If nothing else happens, then sufficient for me to claim these as my consolation prizes:

• 21 km Els Dines Bukit Kiara Run
• Athlete4Life
• Digital Art Drawing
• Shogin Shodan

That's my term.  As for the knot, that is my fucking knot.  I do whatever I like with the goddamn knot.

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